I lapped up all the lovely comments from all you guys and really feel good that I'm out of work and still looking. Have put out the cvs and am getting some bites ... some are getting strong but Ahhhh the pleasures of doing nothin... Do I see a lot of you going green?

Anyway, I decided to polish my femininity and even tried striking a pose like the beauty queen. Also bought the new Cosmo which has 4 books as its the 10th anniversary issue and read up articles like "Sex tricks to try before you die"! :)Didn't know they had such stuff!

There I was all ready to be "legally blonde" and go pink to find romance in all the free time I have. When Cosmo's next article said "Why men can't resist a bitch"! Well I could just stop all the perfect smiles and the back-arching practice and just be the bitchy me!

But hey revelation - guys want the bitchy ones to be perfectly poised and styled too. And that's where I differ from my sisters - they are just super at the whole package while I'm more goofy (dare I call shabby-chic) in my grooming style!

I like rock stars and dream of getting a tatoo one day myself (on this I had written before but someone deleted it for me!) Anyway though Cosmo confused me I decided to hang out in the hammock in the balcony in both the Cosmo way and my own way!

So the bird-watching began and I see a guy staring at me from the next building every day. Our eyes meet occasionally and I'm trying out different smiles without seeming too eager for company. Sometimes I'm me and pretending I'm cool and other times I'm trying out all the pointed-toes-back-arching routine.

I wear shades when I'm cool and pink tops on "Cosmo girl" days and at the rate I switch from one identity to another I'll be a schizo soon. But it occupies my time and the trauma the guy being experimented on is enduring can only be imagined!

However, he seems to be interested in the outcome of my shenanigans too I think! He is marked "present" every day in my idle pursuit! I'm getting a little consumed by the whole thing and desperately need a defenite step from the guy's side!

By the way, the guy's cute and seems to have a lot of idle time on his hands too. Wonder if anybody else is noticing the goings on in the two balconies across the road!

And hey he's into INXS and that makes me happy throw in a little desi numbers and I could be soon in love without saying a word. BTW I'm scared the whole romance bubble will break when we talk and I'd rather seal the lovely "poised for romace" thing for eternity... But any day things could change for better or for worse.

If Cosmo gal wins over the real me and gets the guy I'll have to put up this long-drawn charade till the whole thing blows up in my face! To say the least - it's exciting and for now imagination knows no boundaries....